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Thursday, December 27, 2007

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 08:55:11 GMT

these memories of u will nv fade away.

sigh.
im dying. im suffering. im crazy.

i really hv to see u. i miss u so much.

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 12:58:17 GMT

i know they say if u love somebody u should set them free but it sure is hard to do yeah it sure is hard to do n i knw they say if they dun come back again then its meant to be but those words aint pulling me through cos im still in love with u i spend each day here waiting for a miracle but its just u n me going through the mill climbin up a hill this is the long goodbye somebody tell me why two lovers in love cant make it just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart no matter hw hard i try u're gonna make me cry come on baby its over lets face it all thats happening here is a long goodbye sometimes i ask my heart did we really give our love a chance n i know without a doubt i turned it inside out n if we walked away would make more sense but it tears me up inside jst to think we still could try hw long must we keep riding on a carousel going round n round n never getting anywhere this is the long goodbye someone please tell me why are u ever coming back again guess i'm never coming back again.

can u read my pain?

Monday, October 29, 2007

Mon, 29 Oct 2007 12:56:42 GMT

hv a very happy bday. i will always remember you.

with love always,

n.g

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Tue, 04 Sep 2007 11:36:34 GMT

IM NOT OKAY.

YOU WEAR ME OUT.

Monday, August 06, 2007

Mon, 06 Aug 2007 16:36:24 GMT

im lost in my reflection.

there is smth deep inside my heart that is tearin me apart n i knw that u feel it too, God is watchin all the time as we run through all those lines of commitments. teach me, pls show me where u r when my faith cannot reach that far. perhaps im too blind to see the truth, but this is what is happening, im too weak to survive.

let me rest in peace. i jst hv no more reason to do anything.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 16:53:10 GMT

i jst cant stand up for fallin apart. my heart is in great pain, its bleeding. im stuck with a hand full of bandaids.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 19:01:48 GMT

i tried to hold bck my true emotions n nw here i am, my paper heart is bleeding. Lord pls help me. my heart is in Your hand, Lord, as the rivers of water, You turneth it whithersoever You will.

theres still so much to say n i dun even knw where to begin.

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ah im tangled up in silence.

suddenly dun feel like typing anymore. i'll jst eat my own thoughts.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 22:39:53 GMT

saat ku tutup mataku hanya kau yang ku pikirkan. Tuhan tolonglah ku tak sanggup menghapus air mata. dapat kah kau liat perbedaan yang tak terungkapkan? sigh. memang tak ada kisah yang bisa sempurna.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 18:13:43 GMT

this blog of mine, hw i miss u so. been so long yea. here i am again, cryin out my joy n dancin to sorrow songs at the same time dah dee doo dahdah dee dah doo dah dahdah domdom dada domdom dom dadee dah doo dahdah dom.... i shldnt hv opened this page of my vanishing memory esp with its catalogue of regrets, it really made my day. nw the past seems realer than the present rite nw. i remember the times when i was happy. oh well oh well. nowdays im nt expressive enough, i knw, im locked in a struggle for the right combination of words in a melody line. its way harder than i thought. doh, i forgot to speak everytime u look at me. anyway everyone hv been singing a lullaby for me, thx but no thx. dun be too bloody kaypoh, its a bad habit. lalala~~ hw interesting it is to steal the show from everyone.

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 17:05:20 GMT

wat a happy day!

short entry this time coz all the words are in my heart, i'll jst let them go unspoken. im closin my eyes as im fallin behind. i dun wanna know n dun wanna watch where im walkin anymore, so jst let the mystery silently speak. without u telling me, i know im destroying everything. oh pls. im sober enough to realize that. ppl say nth is miserable, unless u think it is so. what do u think im thinking rite nw then?

this bloody life is such a bitch.